Lust

"I’m always hearing about people wanting the outcomes and rewards of other people’s hard work, talent , and yes sometimes even luck. But, rarely do I hear someone wanting to mimic their will, their hustle, their resolve. We’re often too focused on the material and forget the substance of a person. Their challenges, upbringing, history , relationships, etc. And these can be good and bad attributes. However, why not covet and lust for the character of others instead of their laurels.

We all want to be the best musicians, artists, chefs, athletes, actors, writers, stylist, bloggers, editors, influencers, models, gallerist, etc. Great, fun and noble shit for the most part, but it’s very rare that I hear, “I want to be the best fucking friend I can be, the best fucking dad, the best mom, the best partner, the best damn janitor, the best farmer, the best butcher, etc” The best whatever it fucking is that you can do and thrive at regardless of interest from others and potential acclaim (on and offline). This is what I believe the world is missing”A want of being missed. A lack of fear for the more than likely out come of being completely forgotten. A silent moment of self pride and self-love that comes from doing whatever it is you find the best thing for you to be doing with your time while living.

The beauty will follow."

Cleon Grey of Layon Bone Creative Manifesto 2013’ (via streetetiquette)

"angry, and half in love with you, and tremendously sorry, i turned away." -F. Scott Fitzgerald

"When I didn't resist, I could see the world." -- Pema Chödrön

Wearing my DIY arm chain.

"someday, we'll run into each other again, i know it. maybe i'll be older and smarter and just plain better. if that happens, that's when i'll deserve you. but now, at the moment, you can't hook your boat to mine, because i'm liable to sink us both."

- Gabrielle Zevin

"all i wanted was to be a splinter under your skin, to be wrapped in your body and wait for you to heal over me."

- CJ Evans 

"'explore me' you said and i collected my ropes, flasks and maps, expecting to be back home soon. i dropped into the mass of you and i cannot find the way out. sometimes i think i'm free, coughed up like jonah from the whale, but then i turn a corner and recognize myself again. myself in your skin, myself lodged in your bones, myself floating in the cavities that decorate every surgeon's wall. that is how i know you. you are what i know."

- jeanette winterson, written on the body

"If the world were merely seductive, that would be easy. If it were merely challenging, that would be no problem. But I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day."
-- E.B. White

“So many people are shut up tight inside themselves like boxes, yet they would open up, unfolding quite wonderfully, if only you were interested in them.” -- Silvia Plath

"Henceforth I will look upon all things with love and I will be born again. I will love the sun for it warms my bones; yet I will love the rain for it cleanses my spirit. I will love the light for it shows me the way; yet I will love the darkness for it shows me the stars. I will welcome happiness because it enlarges my heart; yet I will endure sadness because it opens my soul. I will acknowledge rewards because they are my due; yet I will welcome obstacles because they are my challenge.

I will greet this day with love in my heart."

— Og Mandino

Put Your Drinks Up

(via weheartit)

Seeing as today is the last day of 2011, it is almost required that we reflect on this year's events and how things have evolved. I usually love to make a list so here it is:

- finished my BBA degree - major: accounting

- finally developed healthy eating habits & exercise routines

- thoroughly expanded my knowledge & passion for fashion

- finally gotten over my state of "jadedness"

- hung up my partying shoes (night of Steve Aoki)

- realized the responsibilities I have to my family and the ways in which they are important

- got closer to some friends, made new ones, and left the bad ones

- stayed out of the drama bubble

- saw my long-time friend Vicky get married

- saw Skrillex, Rihanna, J Cole, and The Black Keys live

- tried out yoga and loved it

Year upon year, it has always been about the experiences for me. To learn, to grow, and to be grateful for it. I was feeling like I haven't accomplished a whole lot in 2012 because my weekends weren't all too eventful and I was falling to a routine at times. However, now that I'm reflecting on it, I realize that I have been working on my university career this year, instead of my social life. I also realize that there will always be room to develop and grow in both those areas and the experience is what really matters. That is the beauty in it all! So everyone put your drinks up, here's to 2012!

"May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you're wonderful, and don't forget to make some art - write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the new year, you surprise yourself."

— Neil Gaiman

Degree Completed..

"Either the well was very deep, or she fell very slowly, for she had plenty of time as she went down to look about her and to wonder what was going to happen next."

— Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland

"i would like to be the air, that inhabits you for a moment only. I would like to be that unnoticed and that necessary."

— Margaret Atwood

“tonight go to sleep as though your whole past has been dropped. die to the past. and in the morning wake up as a new man in a new morning. don’t let the same one who went to bed get up. let him go to sleep for good. let the one who is ever-new and ever-fresh awake instead.”

— Osho

"like most others, i was a seeker, a mover, a malcontent, and at times a stupid hell-raiser. i was never idle long enough to do much thinking, but i felt somehow that some of us were making real progress, that we had taken an honest road, and that the best of us would inevitably make it over the top. at the same time, i shared a dark suspicion that the life we were leading was a lost cause, that we were all actors, kidding ourselves along a senseless odyssey. it was the tension between these two poles - a restless idealism on one hand and a sense of impending doom on the other - that kept me going."

- Hunter S. Thompson, The Rum Diary

"what are you doing for halloween

2:44pm

samuel

nothing special i'm already a monster"

- Daul Kim (via iliketoforkmyself)

"some people are afraid of what they might find if they try to analyze themselves too much. but you have to crawl into your wounds to discover where your fears are. once the bleeding starts, the cleansing can being."

- Tori Amos

"That's one of the reasons i never wanted to get married. the last thing i wanted was infinite security and to be the place an arrow shoots off from. i wanted change and excitement and to shoot off in all directions myself, like the colored arrows from a fourth of july rocket."

- sylvia plath

"what did my arms do before they held you?"

- Sylvia Plath

"sometimes i'm terrified of my heart; of its constant hunger for whatever it is it wants. the way it stops and starts."

- Edgar Allan Poe

"the very impulse to write, i think, springs from an inner chaos crying for order, for meaning, and that meaning must be discovered in the process of writing or the work lies dead as it is finished."

- Arthur Miller